somebody bring this girl some ham

Here's the thing: No one, not even you and I, have been able to pin point what happened to make us so close. We've always been the "Missy's" & to me, there is a sacredness to that word. I honestly think our closeness is a huge contributor...

Not in the plans, totally planned Christmas

Is it just me or has that Christmas tree gotten smaller?  The fake Christmas tree that we've used every year since I can remember. Is that even possible? I've grown since my last Christmas home. No, Literally. At least half an inch. I think that makes me really 5'11 now, not 5'10 and...

helping, fixing, or serving

"Dont say that" you said. "How can you say that?" you said. "Helping, fixing and serving represent three different ways of seeing life. When you help, you see life as weak. When you fix, you see life as broken. When you serve, you see life as whole. Fixing and helping may be the work...

Please explain to me why golfing is a thing.

10/04/13 They put me in a room.  Green walls. Pictures of golf courses plastered all over. The choice of green makes sense now. Isn't that a little tacky? Don't they know that golf is the worst sport in the history of all the sports? Why do they think...

7 years

Whether it's because she suddenly remembered the warnings so many had given her lately or  because the "i'ts 430 am why the hell are you awake" stomach ache had kicked in. She rolled down her window, the negative two degree air spilling frantically into...

bed head // chocolate pie hangover

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etta james - a staple

Sitting on the porch, getting some air. I watch as my aunt runs past and inside. The sound of a party. The music getting louder as the door opens- Etta James, Sunday Kind of Love - As the door closes the music dulls to a muted sound again. The walls from out here seem as if they could burst open....

Remembrance // Gratitude

There is something holy that comes with the slow work of God. The difficult, and at times, traumatic parts of it all. The parts that in the moment, feel like you will never recover, or never understand the reason of why it came to be. Dark and and at a standstill. Holy. Then you look around...

the nephew

11/4/13 That baby. He changed things. He's changed us. He's been here for a total of what, 72 hours? I've been in the room for nearly all of my sisters births. But this was different. & maybe its because I am a different person, older and closer to that stage in my life. but the...

Tibble Fork

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when standing is too much

take for example my sister. standing at a concert for 4 hours proved to be too much for her tiny little pregnant body. so right there amid the sway of the crowd, she plopped herself onto the floor without a care. no thought for the judgment or glances of others. relief flooded. standing has...

Vague Emotional Stories Part 2

At first I was sure that you weren't right for me. My stubborn personality knew it. I had no doubts. You were not supposed to be in my future. For 7 months you were on my mind and I pushed even the thought of it out. And then that time I was lost in the city waiting at the subway station on the...

and all doubts are ceased.

This is it...

I've come up with a theory since being home. There is a direct correlation between my messy out of control room and my messy out of control life. *This picture was taken back when I had my shiz togeth...

Then, I heard this voice. It came from my own heart, the way it usually does. Only once has it ever been clear distinct undeniable words. Generally just small words speaking straight to every single good feeling in my body.  This time like most, simple...

Vague Emotional Stories Part 1

I didn't know the details of how things would end up eventually but i knew from that first hello on the subway at 161st street in the bronx- that we should have left it as just that. And I should have noticed it months before I did. You never wanted to leave the apartment. You didn't want...

& in that one moment, that one phrase. Physically you felt her testimony,  her belief, her confidence in a higher powe...

be right here

My favorite part about this whole yoga teacher training thing i'm taking (lets pretend I already mentioned this update in my life) is how we are taught to be here. Wherever here is. If you are brushing your teeth, brush your teeth. Don't be thinking about the million...

"Look, I came out with chunky thighs. (lifts up skirt to show) and baby, these are the thighs I had. And they never gave up" -Brinley, age...

24 hours, not days

My first boyfriend was in 7th grade. We were sitting in english class when he walked by to "go to the bathroom" and dropped me a note. I opened it, and it wrote "Do you want to be my girlfriend? Check yes or no." George Straight truly had a way with words. I marked yes and so began my first journey...

THAT MOON. Did you get to experience it last night? I put zero effort into making this video. It has no relevance but I just needed a video to capture how I feel most summer sunday nights laying out on the grass with my family. Sooooo many half clothed babies. Sunday Nights from...

Its weekends like this that make me wish I was a better writer so that I could convey everything that's inside of me. But I am incapable of describing what seems to be overflowing in my heart so just go with me here. It was an 11pm trip up to half moon rock on our last night there....

Sunday thoughts.

"Your therapist needs to shove it." ...

Topanga Canyon

Southern California   from Madison Waters on Vimeo. ...

He burns incense while playing hymns on the guitar in his meditation room.

and when you walk in on him doing this you will probably think he is hot boxing. and in a Mormon sort of way, he kind of is. and you will just shake your head and say to yourself "how long is this mid life crisis going to last?" but really in the back of your mind you don't ever want him to...

Forward it is

I spent an incredible weekend in Grand Junction Colorado, mostly trying to get out of Utah for a bit. A good portion of the weekend was spent lounging around watching Pretty Little Liars (Not even ashamed to admit that we almost watched a whole season in one weekend) but we did manage to get out...