Beauty in the Cesspool


What would pursuade almost 2 million people to live on a island the size of my pinky finger? (No, that number doesn't even included the millions and millions of people who commute into the city everyday or any of the tourists.)

This is how my brain see's it. It's like everyone in the world knows there is this secret when it comes to NY. But does anyone even know the secret? No. Even the people who experience NY every day don't know what the secret is but the fact that the secret is there makes this place feel almost magical. Cheesy? Embrace it.

And I think if that myth of a secret was taken away, we would all realize how insane we've been for putting up with the cesspool subways, and almost 1000 dollars every month to rent a shared room (which I am positive was a shoe box when the landlord first said "yeahhh this looks like something someone would pay thousands of dollars to live in, lets kick the little mice out of their home and shove 4 fully sized humans into it, they'll fit!) when we could be paying off a house with that kind of money,
But I've been sucked in.
I've been sucked in despite the possibility of contracting something fatal everytime I step onto a subway.
Despite when step outside in the mornings and take a deep breath, it always ends in me gagging a lil' due to the giant pile of trash that sat overnight and made the whole street smell.

There is a ridiculously long list of all the great things I love about Manhattan and normally here is where I would insert that list but this post is already waaay to long so I will save that post for another day.

Straight up?
Living here makes me happy. It pushes me Sometimes on the really really hard days I day dream about moving back to Utah where its easier and I wouldn't have to work as hard because Utah is my comfort zone, but the results that come from me pushing myself every day are incredible.

That picture explains how I feel about NY. Beauty in the Cesspool. And I don't think that will ever change.
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Gary Ceran

I've listened to this podcast twice now.
This man is absolutly incrediable.

He lost his wife and two kids in a car crash involving a drunk driver.
Not to mention he and his wife lost five children previous to the crash.
The things he has gone through makes the stress in my life seem this small.
If you do anything today, make it listening to this podcast
..well and maybe eating some food. preferably chipotle.

*pictures from my apt. window sooc
did you know love living in manhattan and seeing this view every day?
well, i do.
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4 plus 4

Picture is a still from the wedding i filimed last weekend (all by myself i might add!)

               8 months (tomorrow!) have gone by.
                 Scary how fast time goes,
                      and yet how absolutely wonderful the changes that come with it can be.

               It's starting to smell of fall here in the NYC.
                  Boots, cardigans, beanies, 
                 and my moms pumpkin chocolate chip muffins are what my nostrils are telling me.
                What are your olfactories telling you?

              (p.s. number 3 is uhh-mazing..
          but really all of them are worth the listening)

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