gratitude at a late hour

Heavenly Father is patient with me. He is kind and forgiving when I make the same mistake for the thousandth time. He knows every thing about me. Every weakness, every imperfection. & yet somehow he still manages to love me and bless my life in countless ways.

 

He is blessing me with this wonderful place called NYC, and I don't think I could ever explain how grateful I am.

Chelsea Babbitt said it better than I could:
 

 

It was then I realized
I am truly happy. Not for the moment, not for a time, but for everything.

I am thankful for everything that has brought me to this point with no end and no amount or number calculated could describe how happy I am to be exactly where the Lord has brought me to right at this exact point in my life.

I have a long ways to go before I am satisfied however, there is always something more to learn and develop and grow to be better from, but I know I am on the right path to that end.

It's amazing what happens when you submit to the lord to guide your life. He has greater things in store for you than you could ever imagine.

For the 12,333,543,232,343,545,454 time.

THANK YOU. 

 

 

 

p.s. i survived the hurricane and came out without a scratch. i can't say the same for this unfortunate car down the street from me. 

 

 

 

Hurricane what?

Its been all emergency preparation/hurry and grab water flashlights and canned goods at the grocery store before it runs out here in NYC. I am pretty sure these past few days city has been having a collective panic attack all together. Between this hurricane and the earthquake a few days ago its been one strange week out here.

But all is well my friends. Me and my apartment are well stocked up for this weekend. We have a prime spot in my roommates room to watch the storm from(a stairwell just in case things get nasty), and plenty of junk food to keep us happy all weekend.

As much as I don't think anything is going to happen, i know prayers are always a good thing. So all my homies in the 801, please keep the east coast in your thoughts this weekend!

Here's to a safe weekend!


and i couldn't resist..

  The Cults - Go Outside by pcagx 

  White Hinterland - Icarus by erinaomi

And you thought it wasn't possible to star gaze in NYC.

you were so wrong.
do you see those 3 dots??
straight up beautiful.
it just doesn't get better folks...

and don't get mad, more music.
(feel free to collectivity groan)
I have a problem where my subconscious nags at me
until I share my musical findings with the blogging world.
It's a curse...
and a blessing.
...peace and blessings.

this post officially has waaay to many ...'s in it.
i hate ...'s don't you?

meow on to the music.

**I apologize, I realized after I hit publish that I wrote this half asleep, with a head cold. Literally, this whole post doesn't make any sense. I'm afraid this cloud in my head (I am calling it cloud irene in honor of the hurricane about to hit us this weekend) came to invade my head and sense of judgment and all things rational. All I have to say now is that this time next week, I will have survived my first hurricane and earthquake, all within a few days of each other. (double fist pump) untz untz untz untz.

update

99-NY

1-UT

"far from what I once was, but not yet what i'm going to be"

pic via

This quote is a subject that keeps coming up in conversations lately and it pretty much sums up what i have been feeling lately. My experience out here has been, well, lets just say it's had it's ups and downs. Until my move a couple months ago into Manhattan, I could not wait unitl the moment Heavenly Father said "Okay Madi, you've learned what you needed, now come back to Utah." I basically gave the big man upstairs an ultimatum (thats awful I know) and said if things don't get better, I don't care what you think I am packing my bags and going home.

In Logan I felt like life could not get better and i've come to realize how unique my experience was there. And dispite me saying "New York?? But life is already perfect why do I need to move half way across the country? Can't I just learn what you would teach me out there, here?" He got me out of my comfort- blanket-utah and knew that this is exactly what i needed. Sending me out here only knowing one person was the only way I could have grown a love, friendship, and appreciation for Him. This is my alone time with Heavenly Father, to get to know Him and myself a little better.

So here we go, i think it's time and i'm just gonna say it.

 I am HAPPY here.

^

^

Thats kind of a big deal if you didn't know.

I put my move back to Utah date for January and was counting down the days until it came, but I don't know anymore. The closer it gets the more I love it here and I can't see myself moving away so soon. I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I NEED TO LEARN!!! January will mark a year of me living here and thats just not enough time. At least not enough time for me.

 I would say i'm about 60/40.

60-NY

40-UT

What do you think?

the yankees skype did you know?

Do you remember my obession with skyping?

I sure you haven't forgotten due to the overly exsessive screen shots I post.  

During the Yankees game we used my dads phone to skype my sister & family into the game.

Can you even handle technology these days?

It was happy.
and i need me one of them thurr i-phone things.

Me and skype are in a realtionship.

And I think its a bit unhealthy.

But I don't care, we love each other.

You cant deny true love.

my week in really big instagram pictures

mom, dad, and sister came to visit me this past week.

i got to be a tourist again and do a lot of the things i have yet to do (a.k.a that cost monies)

here is our blissful ridiculously hot and humid week via super large instagram pictures. 

t'was a great week.

missin the fam already.

Dr. Waters

Father Waters came from utah to visit me for the past couple of days.
He recently got an iphone which resulted in him taking a thousand and one photos but most of them turned out to be just stalker-ish pictures of me and shannon. Either way it was a great two days and I am still trying to convince him to move out here with the fam.

(that last picture on the right is of me telling him 

to stop creeperly taking pictures of me and shannnon and to pay attention)

This city makes me want to be a better person. I think there are only two words that seems appropriate to describe how I feel right now.

I crave.

I crave the gospel more than ever. When I am in the city and temptation is all around me, I want to be home reading my scriptures, or in church listening to a uplifting talk. I wish church was everyday. What a great way to start your day. It's amazing how much more i appreciate it now that I am out here on my own.

Since it was Sunday yesterday me and shannon decided to stay in.

What do you do in nyc in a small apartment with no tv and no friends??

Play with your cat or play a few rounds of uno.

Occasionally we find a cat or two in the fridge.

Loving my time here in the big city.

You would think with so much to do here I would have already blogged 12 times.

I promise to be better at it.