hii whaat?
as if i wasn't already enough in love with bon iver and with this song,
this video just puts it over the top.
b.e.a.u.t.i.f.u.l
"far from what I once was, but not yet what i'm going to be"
This quote is a subject that keeps coming up in conversations lately and it pretty much sums up what i have been feeling lately. My experience out here has been, well, lets just say it's had it's ups and downs. Until my move a couple months ago into Manhattan, I could not wait unitl the moment Heavenly Father said "Okay Madi, you've learned what you needed, now come back to Utah." I basically gave the big man upstairs an ultimatum (thats awful I know) and said if things don't get better, I don't care what you think I am packing my bags and going home.
In Logan I felt like life could not get better and i've come to realize how unique my experience was there. And dispite me saying "New York?? But life is already perfect why do I need to move half way across the country? Can't I just learn what you would teach me out there, here?" He got me out of my comfort- blanket-utah and knew that this is exactly what i needed. Sending me out here only knowing one person was the only way I could have grown a love, friendship, and appreciation for Him. This is my alone time with Heavenly Father, to get to know Him and myself a little better.
So here we go, i think it's time and i'm just gonna say it.
I am HAPPY here.
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Thats kind of a big deal if you didn't know.
I put my move back to Utah date for January and was counting down the days until it came, but I don't know anymore. The closer it gets the more I love it here and I can't see myself moving away so soon. I HAVE SO MUCH MORE I NEED TO LEARN!!! January will mark a year of me living here and thats just not enough time. At least not enough time for me.
I would say i'm about 60/40.
60-NY
40-UT
What do you think?
Lighten Up
About a year ago I posted a quote here on the blog. During my talk yesterday I used more quotes from Chieko Okazaki's* book Lighten Up and I thought I would share here as well.
"If there is one great constant in the universe is the unfailing love of the Savior, the other great constant is his unfailing respect for human agency. He will not override your will, even for your own good. He will not compel you to accept his help. He will not force you to accept his companionship. He leaves you free to choose.
I beg you to open the door and let him in. give him your whole heart, all the pieces, and let him heal you.
He's not waiting for us to be perfect. Perfect people do not need a Savior. He came to save us in our imperfections. He is the Lord of the living, and the living makes mistakes. He's not embarrassed by us, angry at us, or shocked. He wants us in our brokenness, in our unhappiness, in our guilt and our grief."
Chieko N. Okazaki, Lighten Up
*Sister Okazaki was the 1st counselor in the relief society general presidency but did you know she passed away just a couple of weeks ago? I am so grateful we have her talks and books to go back to. She was an absolutely incrediable woman.
"If there is one great constant in the universe is the unfailing love of the Savior, the other great constant is his unfailing respect for human agency. He will not override your will, even for your own good. He will not compel you to accept his help. He will not force you to accept his companionship. He leaves you free to choose.
I beg you to open the door and let him in. give him your whole heart, all the pieces, and let him heal you.
He's not waiting for us to be perfect. Perfect people do not need a Savior. He came to save us in our imperfections. He is the Lord of the living, and the living makes mistakes. He's not embarrassed by us, angry at us, or shocked. He wants us in our brokenness, in our unhappiness, in our guilt and our grief."
Chieko N. Okazaki, Lighten Up
*Sister Okazaki was the 1st counselor in the relief society general presidency but did you know she passed away just a couple of weeks ago? I am so grateful we have her talks and books to go back to. She was an absolutely incrediable woman.
because its a requirement to share good music
VCR - The XX by tracks_arte
Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal by subpop
Harvest Moon - Neil Young by houligen
Fleet Foxes - White Winter Hymnal by subpop
Harvest Moon - Neil Young by houligen
and because I am trying to take life for today,
and not for what it was or will be,
Every time I look out my window this is what I see
and I remember that this is my city
and for this moment it's all i need.
untz untz untz untz
I am giving a talk in church on sunday.
And to be honest,
the rough draft has sort of turned into
a Harry Potter, Buddhism fest.
I may even throw in there a little Judaism and Confucianism.
How do you feel about it?
I feel its gonna be a party.
(fist pump)
on another note,
Isn't he just the ugliest cutest thing in the whole entire world?
I can't wait to spend the next few weeks with him.
He loves me can't you tell?
(fist pump)
on another note,
Isn't he just the ugliest cutest thing in the whole entire world?
I can't wait to spend the next few weeks with him.
He loves me can't you tell?
make as much light as you possibly can in this world
go everywhere, do everything, meet everyone
make as many other people feel seen and understood as you can
acknowledge someone when they speak to you, greet you, or show you human decency
listen to all of the music
eat good stuff
make things when you can
say things when you think them
never let being scared be the reason you don’t do something that matters to you
eye contact
never be afraid to be ugly.
respect your pace
respect other people’s paces
take a minute to be absolutely blown away by how completely beyond anything your imagination could have concocted this world can be whenever it happens
ask questions
tip well
make people laugh until it hurts and isn’t funny and they’re crying and maybe farting a little
appreciate the magic in getting to know someone
never stop loving people f-ing wholeheartedly
via drink your juice
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