always there. just like he promised.

He came. And made a vow to never leave her side again. The minute the promise was given, a darkness something fierce engulfed her. Sitting there on her chest, weight that was so grueling she feared all of her tensed muscles keeping this from crushing her eventually would...

chocolate milk will help

My niece and I have had a rough couple of days. She's been in a funk where she seems to hate the world and wants to let everyone know about it. I've been experiencing what I would call "the organic process" a march that we pretty much all go through but hate every second...

i'll go first

  Share with me the dark parts of yourself? I'll go first if that makes it easier. The stroke of the brush takes my crippled mind and gives it a minute to manage - a break if you will. Laying down water within the lines of my mind. Carefully dropping in color before the water...

no guarantees

“Owning our story can be hard but not nearly as difficult as spending our lives running from it. Embracing our vulnerabilities is risky but not nearly as dangerous as giving up on love and belonging and joy—the experiences that make us the most...

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Styes R gross kids. Avoid them at all costs unless you want to become unloved and untouchable to all of the human race like my little sister and I. Do you see the desperation in our faces? We are pleading you to stay away.  Call 1800- styes-R-gross to give bac...

seeing the evidence of her in my moms hands

Last weekend was spent in Soda Springs Idaho visiting grandma Dixie. Merlin my grandpa passed away coming up on two years ago and we try to make the trip up to see her now as often as possible. No real reason for going except family, you know? That has become another one of those sacred words...

time will do the talking

I've become a firm believer in time. Giving myself time to see past the hardship of what "now" is so apparently shoving in my face. Giving the Lord time to work it out. Time has told me that I am more than my current weaknesses. Those things that seem to be the hardest to overcome, I overcame....

44 days

Quietly get up and leave. Quiet so as not to wake. I sit down on the floor to untie my shoes. Slip on. Re-tie. A five year old again, trying to tie my shoes in the dark.  Check for keys in my pocket. "Stand up" I said. Weighing more than I realized, I take another minute to myself. "This...